All I Want

All I Want: Darcy Bell

Can you hear voices when there is no one around you? Can you see a vision of a woman and young child and yet no one else does? Can a house be haunted, can there be bodies buried beneath it can you learn that what you want might be what you should not have gotten? The Real estate agent named Lindsay was fast talking and used her powers of persuasion to try and convince Emma and Ben to purchase Hideaway House. Showing them the house, explaining it needed work and convincing them to hire JD to do the repairs might have had an ulterior motive. Emma for some reason was drawn to the house. Ben seemed so for other reasons and yet the entire enterprise seemed orchestrated. Moving in Ben who is a producer of shows finds himself traveling back and forth to the city leaving Emma who is expecting their first child alone. Hearing things, a bat in her bedroom and other oddities you begin to wonder if someone is trying to gaslight her or is there some other reason why these things happen and yet she never share  any of it with Ben. Why?
Meeting Lindsay’s partner Beth you get an odd feeling about them, their relationship just from conversation and why does JD barge  claiming to be part of the family?

Emma and Ben move into the house and strange and odd things happen. Emma sees a young woman with a child and when having dinner with Lindsay and Beth why does JD say he saw her too? Odd things happen even orange peels outside and JD claiming it was one of his workers. She even imagines having an affair with him. Ben seems more occupied with work and his productions leaving Emma alone to go to doctor’s appointments. But the dinner with Lindsay leaves her wondering what is really happening and they even refer to the cemetery and graves behind her house. Why does she read the diary that explains who lived there before her and the death? A simple fairytale retold in a script she finds and this diary that highlights the death of an actress who played an evil housekeeper and the woman who lived there that might have taken her diamond ring from her finger. Mrs., Florian Beck is the actress who played an evil housekeeper and Mrs. Fogel was seen wearing the ring did Mrs. Beck give it to her? Emma wanted to read more. She learns more when she goes to the Historical Society and Beth shows her a photo that changes it all. Who is the young girl that she sees outside her window at times with a child? Why does this young girl look like her? Who is Fogel? The photo is guests and staff in 1957 the year that the journal was written. Who is the young girl that is living in this home and why is Mrs. Fogel taking her child and why do they lock her away when she says she wants to leave? What did Mrs. Beck tell her and why did she tell her to leave?

You get an eerie feeling around Emma as someone is trying to make her think she is going crazy hearing voices, seeing strange people and then finding the journal and how does it disappear? Remember this house was originally for mentally ill patients and then some of the past residents died living there. Ben seems distant and there is some strange connection to Lindsay that has not yet been revealed.

Odd things happen to Emma, and she meet Sally, Lindsay’s stepmother who takes her for lunch and you get the impression that this was planned. A picture takes her breath away as the image reminds her of the young girl and the child she imagines or sees. Added in they want to use her house for the Christmas pageant because there is a theater. Talking to her doctor will give you the chills as he says one thing, she thinks another but is there something he’s not telling her?

The author created final events that would make any shudder and shake. As she reveals the truth behind Lindsay and Ben and their affair plus what you think happens to Sally you begin to wonder what is real and what has been created for us to believe. A child is born and it’s a girl and her name are Iris. But why is Emma the prisoner in her own home and what role does JD play and who is he really? Who is Sally? The final pages will shock you to the core and a revelation that stems back to when Dr. Fogel ran the mental house that is Hideaway House and the truth behind the journal that Emma read. What is real? What is fake? All I want is  a room somewhere far away from the chilly night air? All I Want: Wait until you see what she gets!

A narrator that lets you inside the minds of each character individually but who are they really and what is the true reality? Read this psychological mystery and find out but beware: For what you wish? Author Darcy Bell created an ending that let you think this is far from over. What is fact? What is fiction and what is just plain deception or decent? Who can Emma trust? Where is she really? What about Ben? The past reflects on the present. What is real as the author leaves us shuddering and shaking when we realize the harsh reality that someone might have to face.
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